town together with gf, well not exactly town.
we went city hall, walked around penisula, city link.
only had 1-2 hours to walking.
freaking short because i have a stupid curfrew.

anyway watched a video which ah ma told us to,

 

such a beautiful women.
lost herself to eating disorder.
she was a gorgeous and beautiful lady
look what turn out of her because she think she's fat.

how many times do  we critise our body per day?
how many times do we look in the mirror and tell ourselves how fucking fat we are.
do we even love our own body?
or do we even critise people for their weight and their look
causing them to feel so demoralised, lose their self esteem
people are so pressurised into being thin,
being thin just to be able to fit into the clothings seems wrong.

we skips meals so as to lose weight in an unhealthy way.
we keep thinking of the flaws of our body but never the one that reflect good upon us.
watching the video just make me realise how scary ed can be.
it can be so fatal, so scary.
let's reflect on what have we done to our body.
well we all have to start loving our body
because it is our body.
nobody can love it except for ourselves.

as for me,
i'm not going to skip meals to be thin.
i'm going to learn to love my body for the way it is.
i'm not going to let what others say affect me.
because it's just so bloody stupid,
so what if i have big muscles, a little of fat.
it's me and that what makes it me.